Hi folks. Those of you that have been active on the forums in the past couple of weeks, will have seen some some posts from me about giving up on my long ongoing Blackhawk project, and then leaving the forums.
Banita pushed me over the edge with his comments and criticisms at a point where my mental health was low. Lockdown for the last year has taken its toll on me. I've barely left home in over a year, and only for essential shopping.
I was trying to finish my Blackhawk project so I could release it and walk away. I've spent soo many full days at my pc this year working on it, and it's an unhealthy obsession. I did fully delete my files for it, and the code branch. Maybe it was a bit too reactive in hindsight, but I wasn't really thinking straight. It's possible it could be recovered now I look into it, but I'm not sure if I will.
I've been a contributor to this community for over 10 years. I think I'm the only modder left, or at least one of very few, and I'm the only one with full access to the source code repo. As such, I felt pressure from members of the forum to fix things, and deal with bugs being posted. So it all became a bit too much, resulting in the posts and actions I took.
But I wanted to still help the community without getting too involved, and do it on my terms without expectation, so created the simulacrum user account to have a fresh start. I hadn't played the sim in a long, long time, and so when I stopped working on my project, I just played the game as a player for the first time in years, without thinking about modding it. It was nice to enjoy the sim as it is now. Over the past year, with being home more than normal, I have gotten into sims a lot more. I've got MSFS, IL-2 Sturmovik, and Falcon BMS. I've enjoyed playing those and learning them, but EECH always felt like a burden due to the unfinished tasks I felt I had.
So I'm sorry for the dishonesty, and for reacting the way that I did. Reading the posts after I left, I see others were waiting on me finishing my project, and counting on other things being fixed or improved. So I'm sorry if I've let anyone down, or messed up plans they had for the game.
I've been messaging the forums admins in the last few days about all of this, and they have kindly agreed to re-enable this account and let me remain on the forums. The other accounts I created will be disabled.
I'm not going to make any promises or guarantees about working on fixing things in the game, or making mods. If I feel like it, and have the time, then I might. Others are more than welcome to get the source code, and have a go - after all that's how I learnt many years ago. I'll be happy to answer questions, and help if I can.