Was rock climber for years, Skateboarder and Snowboarder to plus mountain biker. To many traumas to count. Dislocated shoulder snowboarding hurt the worst.

Have had traumatic dreams, sometimes in horrifyingly high detail. Sounds, smells, etc. Past experiences, things that I can't really talk about.

Girlfriend worries when it happens, a few times I will wake up in tears, shaking. I've hit her a few times in my sleep, but she's very forgiving. After seeing a head shrink, kind of found out that I had a pretty traumatic childhood too. Sometimes I see memories, and think "did that really happen to me?". One of my sisters has had similar; she's got more in touch with hers and told me to get in touch with mine. I've been wondering about breaking down the barriers by having regressive hypnosis. But to be honest, I'm pretty afraid of what I might discover (if it's true).

Might be a generation thing, and don't know if there's a medical term, but my father gave me a complex of zero self worth. I believe that anything I do is not good enough. Also have no fear whatsoever of death, although I will stress that these are NOT suicidal thoughts.

That's the reason why all I do is encourage my daughter to be herself. Never even raised my voice to her, never discouraged her. Would hate myself immensely if I were to upset her, even in error. Hoping every day that I can be a good father and role model.

My most recurring dream is moving back to my childhood home. A PMQ, on a Canadian Military Base, in Alberta. I lived there from 4 yrs old to 14.
That flying picture made me think of another frequent dream, being able to fly, but only about 5 to 10 feet above the ground. I fly faster is I move my arms like am swimming, but both arms in unison.