Wohooo, thanks guys, finally found it in the
"other" aviation books? thread David linked, it was "North Star over My Shoulder : A Flying Life" and the thread also reminded me of "Fate is the Hunter"
However the list I was rambling about was somewhere under the old library, found on the front page I think and maybe also in the top menu.
Or, maybe I'm just going bonkers and it never existed in the first place??