I feel that I should do this follow-up post to the one I made the other day that caused a bit of a stir, shall we say.

Unfortunately, that topic was deleted so I'm not able to post an update there. I'm not quite sure why it was deleted but there you go.

Anyway, nothing has physically changed in the last two days but why would it, so soon? However, I personally have made steps to 'moving forward'. It's easy to forget how things have been in the past, but I have recently been reassured, yet again, that I am not in the wrong with my current situation. I realistically don't have a chance to move out anytime soon, but with recent clarifications in mind I think I can live with that.

The red mist has cleared and I apologize if I horrified any of you with descriptions of various thought processes I had gone through at one time or another. You can't fault me for my openness and honesty, right?

I believe in signs, even though I am obviously aware that they are 100% coincidences. Yesterday morning I was laying in bed waiting to get up, with the unease and anxiety that I often wake up with. I heard a helicopter in the distance. I heard it again and again until it was closer and I looked out of my window, bleary-eyed, desperately trying to focus and there it was. A WAH-64D Longbow. Two, in fact.

Although a fairly common sight nowadays, I chose to take that as a sign. A sign of hope. And a sign that no matter what I go through, I will always have something to live for. Some of you guys know how much I love helicopters, the Apache/Longbow in particular, and all the work I've done surrounding it.

I do have more to stick around for than to just up and leave. Running away, which was one of the options I'd always considered, would go some way to achieving 'happiness', but as I said, why should I leave everything I know because of other people's behavior and actions?

I do like where I live, and am now becoming more established and more active in the community, so to speak. I won't give that up, and the benefit I can bring others locally, just because of other people where I get caught in the crossfire.

So there is a bit of an update on things. I can't say that all your input was helpful, but I want to thank those of you who did take the time to comment in my topic and message me. Your concern alone makes me realize that I have friends, somewhere, should I need them. And I can only hope that none of you judge me in the future, based on just one instance of utter seeming desperation with no direction. I am more than that, you know I am. My mind does work in odd ways, but I think that it has more to offer and benefit people than to be the opposite.

Thank you for your time in reading this. I hope that you can go away with more peace of mind than the last time you read a topic that I started.

Very happy to hear that. Sometimes we all need to decompress a little bit. Do you have any public transportation available nearby that you could pack a lunch and zip over to the nearest airport or heliport and do some plane spotting? Even though I'm around it all the time, I still enjoy going to airport overlooks and just watching the bustle of an airfield.

I'd love to someday make it to the U.K. (been to London before) and go hiking up to the Mach Loop on a day when they are actually flying...



Good luck and glad to hear you are feeling better..

BeachAV8R

Glad to hear it Flyboy.

Beach,awesome video

Beach... if you are going to come over here and go to Mach loop... give me a shout please!! Its not that far from me, but I've never been to it ! Though my hill walking leaves a lot to be desired these days... too many pie and chips over the past few years!

Flyboy, though I missed the original post in question.. from reading this post all I will say is... we all go a bit nuts at time and attack things we don't really mean too... done it a few times myself out of frustration at things never going my way at the time... Though time has a habit of sorting things out, so keep on in there!

Thanks again for the good wishes.

I have never heard of that 'Mach Loop' before, but I guess it's in Wales going by valleyboy's comment. I believe that the only place in the UK that F-15s are based is RAF Lakenheath, so is there a good chance that the F-15s in that video are from there?

Hehe those Hawk pilots were show boatin'

LOL, yeah I was wondering myself where that thread went. Glad to hear your outlook has improved, even though as you said not enough time has passed for you to have actually been able to proceed much in one direction or another. There was a lot of good advice in that thread amidst the useless, so hopefully you've got some good ideas on how to move on.



The Jedi Master

Concur. There's always a positive.

Ahhh... I lied, I have been through Mach loop without knowing it..... on my bike though! so not as glamorous! It's located near Machynlleth.. hence Mach loop.. as most English people cant prenounce Machynlleth ! hehehe Its a series of valleys between Machynlleth and Dolgellau so it's not one specific spot but a number of locations along that flying route...

Fond memories of hill walking in my younger days up in North Wales.... more around Snowdon though, being dive bombed by Hawk jets while we were on our Silver DofE expedition !