yeah, got "challenged" by a resident to attend an autopsy once and I said OK. After the autopsy started I said I'd seen enough and the resident started to give me some grief about "wussing out". I told him that I helped the flight nurse ( who's now my lovely wife) extract him from the vehicle and he died ( no-one "dies" in the helo, they pronounce them in the E.R.) enroute to the E.R. while my soon to be wife was doing chest compressions and I was bagging him while I was flying the helicopter. I told him he looked in my eyes when we loaded him in the helo and I was looking in his eyes when they rolled back in his head and the Lifepak 11 showed flatline (traumatic arrest). He never brought the subject up again.
THAT'S were gallows humor kicks in-----to maintain balance in one's life. The "regular" folks would be shocked to hear the conversations that take place after an especially bad patient flight but it's a self-defense mechanism to deal with things that thankfully, most people don't have to.
I can't begin to imagine what would go through ones head setting an enemy aircraft on fire, knowing the pilot is without hope-doomed to a horrible end. Don't care how "tough" Mannock talked, it had to take its toll...
It's obviously different for different folks-read "Tiger Squadron" by Ira "Taffy" Jones when I was a kid and he didn't seem to have any issues whatsoever with his exploits during the first war. It appears that his hatred of the "enemy" was so great that the deaths he caused were of no concequence.
