I probably could have said it better than I did ... not focusing on the sinking feeling, but just to say that my sim-life now feels important to me. I can feel a hint, however small, of what it might have been like to know that you can die at any time, to fly with a heightened sense of awareness, to be on edge and constantly looking behind you. It makes a great simulation just that much better!

And yeah, I might need that stiff drink Carrick!